Lonely But Not Alone

Each night becomes much tougher to bare than the ones from yesterday. I don't have anyone to listen to me anymore and there's just no one to turn to. I have built a wall that, even I, myself can't get over and slowly, things just becomes harder to bare on my own. My heart is a happy and loving heart, but I have no one to share this with. I don't have someone who will listen to how I have been, how great my night was and how tough work was today.

The longer things stay this way, the heavier my heart feels. I can't seem to trust anyone and up until now, I wish I could, even if I could let a smudge of light shine through that little opening, but its not as easy as it seem.

I suppose we all come at a certain point in our life where everything just seems a little too much and you wish you have that someone who would willingly listen to you and spend quality time with you. Adult life is quite taxing to manage but once you get the hang of it, apparently, it gets easier. Hopefully, in the near future, I'll have more time to spend outside and socialise.

I am forever filled with gratitude for God has given me sisters and brothers in Christ that I get to hangout with every now then, which, eventually help abate the load I feel within. It may feel hefty now but I lift this load up to you Lord and I know, in your perfect time, you will give me rest. I feel lighter each day knowing that in these troubling times, I don't venture on this expedition alone and that is something that I will continue to embrace. Beyond the amount of struggles and desolation we face each day, I am still tremendously blessed. I may not catch a glimpse of it now, but I feel certain in my heart that I am loved most certainly by God, but also by many others. I know it and I feel it everyday.

Its okay to feel lonely but know that you are never alone. With God, you will never walk this journey we call life, alone.